promos result

okay as expected i did not make it to j2.
okay lets see what i m left with after this year.
myself. once again.
i dont see anyone by myside or along with me.
EVERYONE got their own life now.
was a fool to believe that i can play all the way.
well it did cost me.

pioneer rugby is where i wanted to be.
but for some reason always being left out.
never mind they have a beeter squad without me.
goodos to them for their upcoming competition.

so okay lets see my options.
i can either appeal to be reatained finish my a level get some degree and become police officer.
or, join polytech do my chem eng course.
either way, i will end up getting my degree at the age of 28.
so yeap i screwed my own life.

hmph lets scrap whats left for me.
teachers have got bad impression of me.
Ns is just around the corner.

i wanted to talk to that someone la.but i dont want to be a burden for her as she her ownself has some major decision to make.
when that person told me possible of going switzerland.
my heart just ""kasshing!!"".
n i just said okay.

i just dont want to be sellfish . let the fate take its course.i can do something bout my life now.but bout whether ending up with that person.fate will take its course.

i am not scrutinising any1 for their decision or reaction towards me.its just as expected n i dint really thought miracle would happen.

till then................
lost a battle..............