it sucks

sometimes it sucks to be alone,
it sucks to turn around and see only friends
sometimes i wish
i wish i had someone
maybe i am just not appreciating anything i have now

it often reminds of the past
the mistakes the immaturity in me
the chidish
the wild side of me
i have been like alone for 3 months that is
single i mean
but hey

i do enjoy it , at times,
it feels like shit
when u see other couples
or even when u hear or see ur bloody x having someone else
you would be wpndering why am i still alone
why cant i get someone else to love mee
i cant explain the feeling
maybe its just me?

i have been spending my time with guests at raffles hotel
smiling giving them the service(of a waiter that is)
i tend to get jealous
when i see couples, whom are not so compatible in looks
but they are so lovin
they hug kiss enjoy the ambience of the restaurant

after which i will laugh it off by telling myself
you may never how long this can last before someone breaks someone else heart

i aint saying i m despo to have a gf
all i am saying is the mix feelings of a single

maybe i am not having a life
work , sleep , work
i am missing alot of time with my family
i really do miss my sis
but when i wake up for work she is asleep
when i am back home she is asleep
only my mum would be awake

but heck my mum is just giving me the attention so that i can give her some cash
when i get my pay
so much to care for me huh mum????

my dad, haiz
he calls and talks but i rarely spend time with him
but today i did spend some time with him
we went to apply for bank loan
went for lunch
dad wanted to buy a reading glass
but it was freaking ex
i always wanted to spend some $$ for my dad but
i will end up spending everyting on unwanted things
i love my father
he may not be the best husband
but he is surely the best dad one could ask for
he have sacrificed himself for us
for the family
he is 60!
and he is still working
to supprt the family
not like some drunkard dad or
dad whom whacks the mum in front of the kids
i sometimes feel like shit
as the eldest son
i am not doing my best
i am just doing average
i have never give my personal best in anything to do with studies
this time my diploma
i am going to hit gpa score of 3.8 at the end of poly life
i am going to make uni to come after me n not me gg after them
dad.
the next three years of education
its for you
i love you, naina

i promised shawn for seafood
i wonder how much that gg to cost me
haiz

money money money

you wonder whether people love you for what you are
or love you for what you have
shawn is a good fwen indeed
but haiya its me laaaa

look at the time!
its 2am!
i am wide awake
feeling so alone

all are sleepin
i am all alone watching some crap in the tv

well to think of my dream career
actor of course

the following movies and roles
is what i would have love to act
:-

matrix(keanu reeves role)
billa2007(ajith role)
godfather(ajith role)
deepavali(jayam ravi role)
vali(ajith role)
pokiri(vijay role)
gajini(suryas role)
nandha(surya role)
aalavanthan(kamal hassan role)
panjathanthiram(kamal hassan role)
villain(ajith role)
badboys(will smith role)
dr doolittle(eddie murphy role)
BATMAN
james bond

haizzz.
hopefully my lucky star would shine at a right time so that i can you know get a big break to act!

no dramas please!
lol, no offence , but yea i don fantasize on doing dramas
only
pure movie!


i think thats all la

kanesh
peace out

i wish i can tell you
i wish i saw you ealier
i wish time was just right
i wish to have known you longer
i wish i know whats in your mind
i am unsure
i dont want to scare you away
i jusy dont wanna loose
not now
not yet
maybe not at all
time will tell
if it meant to be
either one will
and surely will
confess
even though we both know we like each other
but as i say
if it meant to be
it meant to be
if not
its not
till then, this thing we have
i dont know what we call it
let it just be like this