pissed off

ok.
i am major pissed off.
i woke up today and i got shit
i woke up at 12pm!!!!
wtf?!!!!!!!!!!
it was raining!!! wtf?!!!!!!!

saw my phone, got a msg from PaviG.
but i just had no bloody mood to reply.
nic called
shawn called
i just dint bother to reply!

stupid mom!
why do women have to talk so loud huh????
further more, its scientifically proven that their vocal cord produces the most irritating voice in the world!
thats why men dont bother answering back to mad screeching woman!

i have got major issue when people shout!
really a big major issue!
u dont bloody hell raise your bloody voice on kanesh!!

my sis had to extra class !
my mum told me she is goin to shop and would be back!
and next she calls and ask me to bring umbrella!!!

i was like wat the fuck!!!!!

its bloody rainin and she got a class why u ask me to come out!!!!
then she started yelling
being the soft-hearted person i am,
i went in the rain,
got drenched!
my sis never come out from school
she was still in!
my mum was like go see she is cming back home n bla bla bla
shouting away!!!!
arrrrrrgggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh


fucccccccccccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!

i went inside
whoh!!!

the canteen was crowded with small pest!!!

all the primaru school kids!!!
swallowing their food
running around
fighting!

was i this irritating when i was young?
i just realised i was much more irritating with my attitude then,

then i skimmed through the pest and i caught my very own pest,my sis
lol
brought her back!
DRENCHED IN THE COLD WET RAIN!

i was like cursing my mum,
i mean like why the hell want to go to schoooollll

arghhh old people,


anw,much more relieved now!
since i bloged it all out!

next,
i realised i am ashamed of myself!
yes, my past ,mistakes
and the present state that i am

no one would ever believe if i tell them i was a rugger or even a footballer!
i gained so much bloody weight!
my thighs my belly!!!
i am disgusted by mysef!!!!

all the fats the oil
eeeeeeeewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
i got major issue with being fat,
i was bullied in my primary school
dubbed as babat(fats in malay) bola and many more

and i went around picking up fights which now i realise it was total stupidity!

yeap!
i am impatient
haha
bloody impatient to the max
i need help on that.
i just need one good result from anything that i wait for or be patient of
till to date for wateva things that i have waited for and had patience of gave me shit!
i gained nothing from all the wait and patience
and now i have this mindset of if i want something i want it now and i mean it!

lol.
but slowly realising somethings are worth the wait!
yea.
i have waited for the fish tank
i have got one.
i dint pay anything
i have waited for hmmmmmm
i think that the only thing la!


more about me.

i hate people looking down on themselves when they talk to me!
when u are talking to kanesh u better not look down on yourself!
u want to look down on others its fine, i might join you and we can look down on others
but u dont look down on yourself when u r with me or talking with me!


i am like so into myself
lol

i have to loose at least 5kg before poly resumes.
from size 36 i want to try and hit 34 and by the end of the year 30!


and i am sure nic would be fucking jeolous of me laaaaaaa....
lol
oh yea and nic stop following my style of communication!!!!!



kanesh
in search of fame and wealth!