happy yet disspt

exam weeeeek!!!

walllao
i wish i had some tuition when i was taking my Os
it would have made whole lot of difference
with tuition i got an A2 foe my emaths
from a bloody f9 i got at mid years

just imagine
if i had the means
toook a tuition for my science esp physics
i would have gotten my 5 A1s
haiyah
but past is past
i regret but that doesnt hold me back NOW
i mean elo o
past is past
its done and over
screw it

what does it have to do with future
maybe i just got enuf guts
to face the future and not be taken aback

i thank my mum for bringing me up
i think i got much more responsibility and better attitude
than many others

though my mum can really be
at times a terrible person
i cant blame her
maybe at the point of time i would be cursing
and swearing at mum in me
but i dont really mean it

and i hate people who got impression that my mum is some sort of evil person
u dont knw that person so just shut up la please

talked to shawn
he said he missed my mums tomyam!!!!
haha
shan and nicholias also

haizzzzzz

anws
exam time can be real tiring
i have always told myself that i need to revise everyday
but i would always failed to do so
and now everything is last min
haiya!

next time i must get my priorities right la please
i am happy i got few close and true friends
ppl i can turn to and trust them with my secrets
ppl like shan,nic and shawn esp

shan can be a very good fren to the whole world
everyone can be shans friend
coz he is a good and sensitive person

kanesh can also be a very fren to everyone
when he has money to spend on them
get it?

cause i speak my mind whether they like it or not

and guess what
shan and me are brothers
unlikely pair of frens?
well yes we r

ahaha
he will ask for advise from ME
i will ask from HIM
he will clear my doubts
and abolish some of my freak mindset
hah
he is such gem

anws i will stop being gay
lol

yes i am kanesh
yes i have a very old mindset
women r suppose to stay at home and take care of the kids
while the husband find goes to work
i hate the trend where the couple have to go work
i mean like elo-o
the children???

for me i dont want my children to be growing up in their gandparents home or even a maid have to bring them up
no o
that destroys the bond with child from the beginning
scold me and say all u want
this is what i want my life to be when its my time to have a family
to be working father
have housewife
and happy kids growing up under the love of their mother!

i thank god that i dint get "laid back" because of my failed relationships
first was 2 years of rs( broke up!)
2nd one was a fling
3rd one cheated me

i would say the 3rd one hurt me the most among alll
and yes it did took a toll on my life
it went down the drain
it made me realise that there is a low point in a life

but heck
thanks to my mum and my friends
i got over the a hole
and yes
my life is way better now!
and yes i dnt let that affct my current rs

there is a voice at the back of my head
girls are always plastic about their FEELINGS
huh
but i know it would be unfair to my current gf
so yes i do love her alot
and i trust her
i dont want this relationship to suffer bcoz of the PAST
cause its very very very very ubber UNFAIR to the partner

and shawn many have said u r just a bad influence
many ppl can say this and that about u
even i sometimes had some harsh words against you
but bro
u would always be my brother
and shan u tooo

my right and my left eye

my gf is my heart
and i m my own brain

everyone happy now???

lol

tc
kanesh
peace out!